Me Myself and I

Lately I've been wondering who am I? Two years ago I wrote a full on description on who I feel I am though nowadays I'm not too sure of who I am myself. Though what are we really? Are any of us really human? There has never been a guide book where it says this is a way a human should live, and because of that there are many confused people. Confused over what you may ask? Confused over a meaning, confused on why you exist what purpose is there for you to even be here on this earth, and as you think and think and can not find the answer you fall more into your mind until you become obsessed over who you really are. Over what you were meant to do in this world. You obsess over meaning.

Though maybe you really don't perhaps you have the mindset of simply not thinking about such trivial matters and simply live on with your life as if ignoring it was a natural thing. Why people do this it's because they already know who they are, they are content with what life has come out to be. Because of that they pose no further questions and only think of what's at hand, thinking only of the now and the future, of course occasionally looking at the past but only for reference or guidance nothing more.
What I am saying and I will acknowledge it, is in every way too general I'm only applying of course to a set group trying to teach the fact that you are who you are and what you do is what you do. Do not fret over the fact that you have not done anything humongous that has changed the world for the better or the worse. If you want to do something like that than by all means go ahead though it isn't as easy as it looks. I've met this wonderful lady once it took her 10 years to accomplish what she did and she really did make a difference in the world of course you may do the same. That is if you are willing to spend the amount of effort it takes to accomplish such a feat.

As I close this of I will say this once more you are you and nothing else. You are no one else but you and what you can accomplish is anything you want that is as long as you're willing to work for it.

Suicide on North bound 5

For those of you up to date on what is going on in the world many of you might have heard that a women was contemplating on whether or not she should commit suicide. Everyone of course made the same remarks "How stupid! Why won't she just do it already? Why at a freeway?"
You have no idea how much I wanted to yell at everyone and ask "DOESN'T A HUMAN LIFE MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?!?!?!?" I don't care if it's stupid or not if a person is deciding on whether or not to do it shouldn't that concern us more!? Instead all we do is complain because it's a bother in our life how many of us actually have this thought go through our head? "Well if she's deciding doesn't that mean there is still that small ray of light in her heart that encourages her to keep on living?"
Though all I kept hearing from everyone was the same @!#% everyone wanted her to just do it already so they can get on with their lives. How many of us can even be considered human anymore? It is times like this where I just want to yell at people because of how inhuman they act, but because I'm at school people start thinking "oh this guy is crazy."

That is why I write here because through writing people have a much better understanding, I am not branded as crazy but as a person with an opinion.

No more school posts!!!!!!

I now have total liberty to write whatever the heck I want on this blog without holding back, just kidding. I still have to hold back because someone might flag me for something inappropriate I might put on, so I guess that means I still have to hold back a little. Well anyway here is the story because my teacher felt that I put up posts that aren't school related on my own personal blog and there is the fact that he has my blog posted up on his DP so if I say anything that is slightly disturbing how exactly will it represent the school. To be honest there was truth behind those words but still that doesn't mean I can't express my self.
POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!!
Though I'm a bit glad that I don't have to put school posts on this anymore because to be honest I felt that my school posts and regular posts where in a way conflicting with each other, also I kinda of thought how many people actually want to read this?
Anyway right now I am currently running three blogs a school one a regular one and a cooking one...which I need to start updating. I haven't really updated it for the following reasons

1. I haven't had time to cook anything
2. I want to put up pictures
3. I can't decide if I should vegetarian or just put all types of recipes
   
4. I've been extremely lazy

Anyway I hope you start reading other blogs too and if you want to give me tips or suggestions for a new blog or maybe how to improve my blog than please go ahead.

The Connections

It's sad that I am only a small factor in some of my friends' lives right now. The only thing they can remember me by is the past I shared with them, but there lies the problem I was different back then I was someone they didn't want to share their past and I regret some of the things I have done. I wish that I could spend time with them now to show how much how I have changed and how I have become a better person. I don't know...well I don't remember why I did such things, maybe it was to show my friends how cool I was, or to at least meet their standards. But in sixth grade is when I really changed I realized the people I wanted to respect me didn't know about life and neither did I. But which one of us did? I don't think any of us really knew what life was supposed to be especially at our age. We where what 12? So of course none of us really knew what we were doing, we didn't know how much we were hurting until we saw a person cry and then all of us would go into a group hug.
I always go back to the same question WHY do we do these things?
I think it's cause we do not know life, and that few of us know how to make a "true" connection. What is real friendship? What is real love? WHAT IS REAL?
Why must I at the age of 16 have these thoughts? Then I remember I have these thoughts because I have caused pain and I have seen it countless times, and I just want to know how to end all this madness, all this insanity, all this inhumanity, all this pain. Yet for some reason I can never do it, no matter how strong my friendship is it will in some way or other get cut, I can't keep a person happy because something bad "must" happen.

What can I do?
The answer has always been be myself and help the world a little bit at a time.
Unfortunately I'm very impatient but I really want to change the world.

The World

We have all heard how people, die because how they were treated. How people committed suicide, it's hard to talk about this subject because we never bring it up do we? What can we do just to save these people from killing themselves? It's all just questions on this subject because it's hard to answer is it not? I guess that's the only thing I can think about, to talk about this, questions and no answers. Yet I will try, why have a steadily increasing number of us have chosen to take our lives? Is it because there is a steadily increasing number of us that are putting other people down? But there lies a great question why don't we respect one another, support each other, help others in need? Why have we become bitter? Is it because since we don't have other people supporting us we must put other people down? What is the reason some of us put others down? Why do we make it seem like we don't care or to rephrase that how? All we can ever ask is why? The answer is always the same somebody just does not care about that person. How can we say that they make a difference, how can we love someone who is different then us? How can we care about them? How can we make a difference? My answer is "one sentence." That is how we can make a difference just by saying one sentence. What you say is not up to me, what you say is totally up to you. But saying one sentence can swing both ways it can make someone totally miserable or make them extremely happy.

Whatever your choice is might kill someone or it might save them.

Remember Words have power in them use it wisely.

Humanities Narrative

Now as most of you know I go to a project based school, which has its own personality guidelines,
guidelines that have been nicknamed The Habits of the Heart and Mind, or HHM for short. Now for every project of ours we reflect on it and ask ourselves did we incorporate the HHM? Well for me it is a problem trying to use all of them in a project, I say this because I only use some of the
guidelines unconsciously of course I use them all when I think about it but that was not the case
for my most current project "I believe in America" which honestly I do in some ways but with my personality I'm pretty much OK with anything. Anyway before I stray off subject like I always do I have to tell you what HHM I had used in this project. The first one is perseverance, you know "never give up never surrender!" Now the first time I saw this HHM I just laughed because I am really stubborn to the point where people are annoyed, so of course for me this habit is no biggie because of course my own personality takes into effect. Anyway in this project I never gave up, you can ask JBoss himself I'm pretty sure he remembers how much I kept bugging him so I can get my face plastered, as for my essay I just wrote what I felt and had my friend refine it, which I refined,which JBoss never looked at because I had to record it ASAP. Which brings me to the next habit Refinement which I unconsciously wrote about it already while I was making fun of myself. Which says that I am not really Mindful of my writing, for instance I just realized how many times I've used the word "which"that makes me wonder if I even used the next habit Mindfulness in this project at all and to be honest I really don't think so because when I write or do anything, I'm in my own little world and I completely neglect the real world. Though if I really think about it I guess I was mainly mindful in my writing because I usually cuss, yell get angry etc. it's a basically a mixture of emotions. Of course when I wrote my essay I had to think about my most rated G perspective on America, and I will be honest I have a ton of opinions of America some good and some bad, but well this is one person's opinion so why does it make a difference? Well for me I think that if you listen to every one's opinion on a subject you yourself obtain a new opinion on it. For me even if perspective is a habit when I write a piece of writing I am not looking for you to argue I just want you to hear me out and just have a taste of "my" perspective. Even with my friends I say the same thing I don't want an argument or for you to agree I just want you to have a taste, this is why I call my blog The Mind of Andres because this blog is all about my perspective. Of course another perspective and to be honest confuses me a lot is the difference between passion and Compassion those always throw me off. I remember when I had to do POL I mixed up the HHM Compassion with Passion, they really aren't the same thing apparently. Passion is well having emotion in what you do and Compassion meaning understanding the troubles and hardships of others. I wouldn't say that I have ever used it in a project I have only really used it to help my friends or others ou of hardships. So I guess in honesty I didn't really use it in this project at all, of course the same implies with cooperation not because I hate people, I love people, but mostly because this was an independent project maybe every here and there I helped with editing and refinment but really that's about it. The last thing I'm going to talk about and I know most of you are saying "FINALLY" is of course evidence. I have to say I had barely used it in my essay I have a ton of experiences about how evil humanity can be, and how good but I really didn't use those examples in my life as much so I guess you would say that was another bummer.

Anyway this is the end of it so bye bye and have a good day.
"No I will not stop posting posts I'm just saying this is the end of this post"

Today

Yo what's up people?
Well this is how I woke up this morning I woke up thinking "man I have such a bad feeling" guess what I found in my room? I found my dogs...leavings. So I had to get a bucket of water towels and clean it from my carpet because my dad said he would not take me to school unless I cleaned it. From there I KNEW that today was going to be a bad day, and I was right, all the juniors got in trouble including me. We all got in trouble because we were disrespecting our education, and to be honest I kinda of agreed with the teachers. You have no idea how many times I've had to tell my friends to just except the homework we are given and not complain about, because that's just how high school is, in high school you have to work your butt off, no one has any right to complain. Also the teachers brought up the fact that the students were cheating off of each other, I thought "well if they at least explain it to each other I'm ok" but that wasn't the case for the juniors apparently and I honestly believe that. I have been asked countless times if people can copy from me, of course I say no and help them though, I know how much trouble I can get in if I plagiarize, I'm not dim enough to do that. Though you would think well so what why is this so important to blog about? Well to be honest this is the first time in a while were I was so peeved at everything to the point where I cried because I held back me emotions. I was truly and utterly angry at everything, I was not just peeved of at everyone but myself included. I was angry at myself because I could not do anything to stop these events and I was angry at everyone else because of their #$@%@%@$%@$%$% I'm so angry I can't even think of a word to describe their #$@%#$%@#%@#^ so i just put @#$%@$%#@%^#6.

Well I guess that's really all I want to say. So I'm gonna end this and just say don't plageriaze and just work hard, because if you don't you are only cheating yourself. You are allowed to complain all you want, because that's freedom of speech, but please do it while you are alone, and just suck it up and do the work. I know some of you hate to do it but these days that's just how you progress in life.

Complaining

Hello people. Now as most of you know and it's basically a very common fact the reason people have blogs is to complain about whatever. Right now I want to complain on why people complain you see I am totally contradicting myself because for those of you who have read my "PERSONAL" blog posts you notice how I complain about almost everything and that's just how I am really. All I'm trying to say what is complaining gonna do? How many people that write these things make a difference in their communities? How many actually volunteer to help out somewhere were there was an earthquake, tsunami, oil spill, eruption and any other type of natural disaster you can think of? It's not enough to just tell people to do it you just got to get off your but and just go!!! AND YES I am trying to tell you right now to stop reading this blog and do something volunteer help out at a homeless shelter, make a sculpture out of recycled materials, pick up trash while your walking home, start walking and stop driving a car, save the world get a compost for your house, sell the dirt it makes, do something that can benefit the community. Right now it seems like right now I'm not doing anything like that but you know what I'm making a tree out of recycled paper, every time I go to my beach I pick up trash. I help my school fundraiser, I give ideas to my superiors to do things that everyone will love, throw a rave, car washes, water balloon fights, i have a compost bin at home you can do a lot of things you just need to know what to do. So just ponder what needs help, does anyone need your help try to even deal with the small things like spending time with your family. Just do something that will not just satisfy you but also something that will make others happy.

WE ARE ALL PEOPLE, PEOPLE ARE GREEDY AND RUDE, BUT THEY ALSO HAVE A LIMITLESS CAPACITY OF KINDNESS, LOVE AND COMPASSION.

I live by this rule, I know people can be snobby rude and only care about money but making people laugh, smile and love that stuff is priceless. You don't need money to have a good time you just need a little imagination and the will to get up and just go.

OK my prattle is done so see ya later.

full essay

Its amazing how four words can mean something passionate, "I" meaning me and myself, "believe in" to put faith into and "America" is a place. Though what happens when you put them together? "I believe in America" it means the faith I have in this country, though what about America do I believe in? I believe in its people, because even though they are misguided at most times they have the strength to pull of miracles. They have won wars, made skyscrapers, built dams, they have done things that have changed the world.While you may not see it now, I believe that there is still a burning passion in each human that lives in America. A passion that can change the world, just like it has before in history countless times over.

When I say the people of America are misguided at times I'm speaking from experience, sometimes we just don't know what to do. Not many people make it a living to guide people onto the right path, at times we stray from it and end up in a place where we don't want to be. From my perspective it makes me sad that it isn't a job. I'm not talking about a guidance counselor that puts you in a good school, I'm talking about someone who is there to help with people's problems. People need to know how great life is, that's an America I want to believe in, an America that struggles to live and doesn't give up. Though I am glad that there are some people who struggle to live, because those people can pull off miracles. I've seen them do things that make my jaw drop. There are people that have saved lives, people that don't want to live but keep on living because they are still looking for a reason to live.

To be honest that's what I mostly love about America there are so many people fighting to live and survive in a cold dark world. Sure there are probably millions of countries that do the same thing but America is different, they live for there own purposes. Sometimes those purposes are greedy and selfish, other times they help the world. I don't care if people are good or bad I just care that people live on to better themselves and to better their lives, their families, their friends. This is why I believe in America because people will strive to live, people will strive to make the world a better place.

This is how it ends

Before I get ahead of myself i'm talking about my conclusion for my essay not 2012 or anything else that relates to doomsday.
Anyway as most of you know I'm making an I believe essay that relates to what I believe in America. This is strictly for my school, but because this is my personal blog, I'm going to be a little rebellious and prattle about whatever I can think of right now.
Oh will you look at that I just thought of something. As some of you know, but for some reason I believe that no one knows, I have a cooking blog with only one measly recipe. Mostly because I haven't thought of anything to put there, now because of events that are way to complicated to go into I am making that blog into a more healthy cooking blog, I will try to update it as much as possible, I'll try my best to put a full menu each day.
For n0w if anyone wants to follow the blog or put it on reader please just follow the link or copy and paste it in add subscription on google reader
http://foodofandres.blogspot.com/

Now TIME TO WRITE MY CONCLUSION

"To be honest that's what I mostly love about America there are so many people fighting to live and survive in a cold dark world. Sure there are probably millions of land that do the same thing but America is different they live for there own purposes. Sometimes those purposes are greedy and selfish, other times they are purposes that help the world. Though I don't care if people are good or bad I just care that people live on to better themselves and to better their lives, their families, their friends. This is why I believe in America because people will strive to live, people will strive to make the world a better place.

What do i mean

Hello Earth.
Welcome to my blog now if you have not read my previous post, I would like for you to stop reading, and read the previous post because you will find it hard to understand what this post is about.
You done? Good, now what I want to talk about is obviously what I meant about this intro. Well I just want to say WOW! Because of a simple itsy bitsy matter, the subject at hand that I spoke about relates a lot to my life....
OK you know what I'm going to stop talking like that cause it's annoying me.
OK now I tried really hard to remember what the heck I was talking about, and I mean hard. Now if most of you know me you know how I just I speak, or write in this case, and I have no idea what the heck I was talking about. I'm totally oblivious to what I write to be honest I just write whats on my mind and when I see it I go "what?"
Now usually I really don't need help figuring out what I meant, but for this one I thought I would need a little more information than usual. So I asked a couple of my friends to talk about the glory days we shared together. Now I just want to say, man I was a mean a kid back then, kinda am right now but not as much I was back then. Some of you probably already know what I'm trying to say, and if you don't well let me just say "Well you know how guys are, we do stupid stuff." Sometimes that stuff doesn't even make sense but we do it for the laughs and to see who is more macho than the other.


When I say the people of America are misguided at times I'm speaking from experience, sometimes we just don't know what to do. Not many people make it a living to guide people onto the right path, at times we stray from it and end up in a place where we don't want to be. From my perspective it makes me sad that it isn't a job. I'm not talking about a guidance counselor that puts you in a good school, I'm talking about someone who is there to help with people's problems. People need to know how great life is, that's an America I want to believe in, an America that struggles to live and doesn't give up. Though I am glad that there are some people who struggle to live, because those people can pull off miracles. I've seen them do things that make my jaw drop. There are people that have saved lives, people that don't want to live but keep on living because they are still looking for a reason to live.
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I believe in America Intro

Its amazing how four words can mean something passionate, "I" meaning me and myself, "believe in" to put faith into and "America" is a place. Though what happens when you put them together? "I believe in America" I think it means the faith I have in this country, though what about America do I believe in? I believe in its people, because even though they are misguided at most times they have the strength to pull of miracles. They have won huge wars, made skyscrapers, built dams, they have done things that have changed the world.Maybe for now you don't see that as much, but I believe that there is still a burning passion in each human that lives in America. A passion that can change the world, just like it has before in history countless times over.

I believe in America

In my mind I find that I think America is lazy, but when I think about it more and more, I find that what I am saying is a lie. America is not lazy it is just that people rely more and more on technology. Though I always wonder what is it that makes America so great that people keep coming here. As Colin Powell said,

"My family’s story is a common one that has been told by millions of Americans. We are a land of immigrants: A nation that has been touched by every nation and we, in turn, touch every nation. And we are touched not just by immigrants but by the visitors who come to America and return home to tell of their experiences.

I believe that our greatest strength in dealing with the world is the openness of our society and the welcoming nature of our people. A good stay in our country is the best public diplomacy tool we have."

I guess that would be the simplest way to answer this, and as he says later on our "openness is also our vulnerability" which was a true fact after 9/11

"bless their souls"

after that we showed fear to others, to others that were coming to our country they came to the conclusion that America was no longer an open country. Driven by fear America just became paranoid about everything, but we shouldn't be fearful of those that come to this open land, we should only be careful not fearful.

Yet still so many people still go to this country because of America's IDEALS, because of its freeedom. No matter how much America was scrutinized people will always want to come here because this is their promised land.

I find it funny that after hearing Colin Powell's essay I can still say that this world has become a little bit brighter. Though I wondered what he meant by his last sentences? I didn't really get what he mean, did he mean an America that welcomes guests and treats them well without getting anything in return? That is the only thing I wish was more explanatory.

An interesting news article

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090907/ap_on_go_pr_wh/us_obama_school_speech

Usually I hate politics I'd rather have nothing to do with them, though it interests me how so many people make a big deal from just a speech. In this article it talks about Obama's speech to a children of the country. Before this was even delivered by the big guy himself the thing was put on fire instantly. There are already so many people complaining about what's in the speech and how they say he is exhorting children. I find it silly on how they make such a big deal about it, tell me how would you tell children to do good and help support this country and put yourself in the shoes of the president.
I just want to say that people overreact over the silliest things and I wonder if I'm doing the same thing by overreacting to this article. Obviously I have.

Fierce Wonderings

See here is the thing about these things, I can go on and on for hours and hours talking about who knows what, because I wonder a lot. There isn't a thing I don't wonder about. Though there is always this one thing that nags at the back of my mind. WHY WAS I PUT ON THIS EARTH? I really have no idea, but that is why I'm living right now because I myself want to know how fit into all this. Maybe I'll become a hobo or maybe I'll become some extreme activist that destroys cigarette companies from the inside out. I mean who knows right?

Favorite Youtube Video

Time Capsule

Greeting earthling or whatever you guys will be called in a year, and if you still are clueless of what I'm getting at I'll give you another clue. It involves me putting stuff in a box and not opening it for a year. Still clueless...silly goose it's a Time CAPSULE!
Of course all of you already knew that because of the title, but if you forgot to read that....well I just don't know what to say about that.
Well as usual this blog post is for school this wont be happening for too long though because my school now has its own blog system so I wont be using this. Well I'll still be using Blogger but it would be sponsored by which is totally different, at least I hope so.
Anyway I have put more then the recommended amount of items in my box then most, all these things represent me in some way. Which is pretty hard to do you have no idea how hard I had to look for things that had a deeper meaning. First we will start with the box itself, this box is a flippers box, not the sandals the ones you use for boogie boarding. Now I love the water I love the beach and well I just thought that the best way to describe what I do in my spare time will be the box itself. The Second item is a heart, no not a real heart though it does look like one, it's actually a heart shaped lock. This represents my quest to become a doctor, but it represents much more then that, it represents an ability I have, the ability to make people open up their hearts to this world. I have yet to find a heart I cant open, but of course there is a third meaning in this small heart shaped lock, I have put in it the combination code of my best friend's birthday for whom I love and miss dearly and with every bit of energy that's within me I hope she's ok out there in this world of ours. The person I am talking about also holds onto my heart, no she is not my girlfriend she's my childhood friend for whom I will love always.
The third item is something I have obtained while writing this blog, and that is seeds from an apple I just happened to finish at this second, and to be frank I think I got something stuck in my teeth right now. Probably right now most of you think this is cheating isn't a time capsule supposed to have something worth meaning? Well I'll tell you this right now that everything has meaning. These seeds aren't normal they have a meaning and this meaning is from my best friend Kim, now this girl I found at that her favorite fruit are Fuji apples which is a breed of apples that has been mixed between two different other breeds Red Delicious & Virginia Ralls Ganet. Of course there is more meaning to just choosing this because it's my friends favorite fruit. After a year the seeds will be ready to plant and I can grow them, yet again what does that have anything to do with this time capsule? Well growing and planting things is also another thing about me, I garden I have my own home grown garden at home right now and to be honest everything tastes delicious. Now, yes there is more to it, nature describes me in such an honest way. I grow, I absorb the nutrients that I can be given, I am rooted to the earth, so I guess you can say I am down to earth, but that's the thing I believe that plants grow to try to reach the sky, I'll always look at the sky and dream. I am a tree, I am a part of this world, a part of this whole equation we call life.
The next item is a picture, that I myself drew, this picture is slightly abstract at first it's hard to see but when you look at it you see leaves and then a very oddly shaped oddly colored leaf. That's no leaf, that's a snake, why I drew it like that...well to be honest I was just BORED. Though I find it interesting on how I can now let that represent myself, I guess I can start with the fact that I am weird, weird=abstract, at least that's what I think. I'm not saying I'm creepy weird, I'm more of a fun type of weird. Now the snake well here is a nice connection to religion, it is the snake in the Garden of Eden, I'm not saying I am the devil incarnate all I'm saying is that no matter how good I am I still have that darkness inside of every human heart, and that is just reality to me.
Number 5 & 6
To be honest I'm kinda actually getting bored writing this and I wonder if I am boring you, ,y reader. If I am just comment on how boring this post was and what I could've done to at least make this slightly more interesting. ANYWAY!!!! The fifth item is a puzzle well to be honest 2 puzzles one is a dragon puzzle I made a while ago, and the other is a brain teaser. I have as I said before always wanted to touch the sky, I've always wanted to be a bird or at least fly, and for those who don't know much about dragons, my dragon puzzle is an Asian Lung and as the name suggest "were" common in Ancient Asia, though I wish it was a Mex. Amphithere because I would have more to relate, because my middle name is Quetzalcoatl an ancient god of the Aztecs who most think was a Mex. Amphithere because Mex. A's are feathered serpents. Now what the other puzzle obviously describes is how hard I am to understand, of course when it comes to doing something idiotic than of course I would in all manners of the word be predictable and easily understandable. Yes I know that was a contradiction but don't you just love how I just try to confuse you.
The seventh item though is something a bit special it is two gifts that my friends made with their own two hands...or should I say four because it was from two friends. They never saw me open them but I every now and then I look at them and smile and just forget my troubles and I remember there are two people out there who love me a lot and they want me to love life, and love tacos.

Love
it is a word used lightly, but it has a heavy meaning with which is hard to describe with words, most of the items in this box has a small bit of love in it. The dragon I built with a friend, the puzzle I got from my uncle, the heart, well you already know, the seeds is for my love for my friend kim, and well the drawing that is just thanks to the people who drew with me and helped me enjoy it again.
This world is vast don't forget, but don't grieve because you will find your true love one day. Trust me I know :)

QQC Summer Reading

Hello Humanity, or if you are familiar with the book Pendragon
Hello HALLA!!!!
Before I start I just wanted to say after summer school man I had one heck of a summer and I mean it was super fun I went to the beach every day and I got a nice tan, and in my personal opinion I look hot right now ;) I'm just kidding I look the same just darker is all. But man if some of you have gone to Imperial Beach you would understand how much fun I was having especially since the past weeks have been five foot swells.
Now as most of you who have been reading these past posts over the summer you would know that I had summer school. Yeah go me, not really but hey it's a lesson in life right? A lesson that says "Get off the couch and do something with your life you lazy bum!!!!!!!" Now to get my final grade I have to do a Quote, Question, Comment and as most of you know this format was the same I had done for my first summer school post. Well the book I have been reading as you already know is Pendragon, but this wasn't just one book this was the last book in a series of books. The end, the conclusion the final battle, and frankly I'm really sad that the series ended but hey at least it ended well.
Well I'm going to start my last assignment now hope you like it. :)

Quote:
"this is the way it was meant to be" Page 565

Question:
Does everything that happen have a purpose?

Comment:
Yes, everything that has happened, everything that you have been influenced by is part of a larger thing. Larger then the world. It is a part of a system we call life that we call the universe. Everything happens for a reason, and trust me if you are into this kind of philosophy you would definitely love this series. Throughout the book the author, D.J. MacHale, keeps nagging at the fact that everything that happens, happens for a reason, and lately I think this logic to be true. A lot of things that I think coincidence I am starting to see are just a small part of the bigger picture. Truthfully I have seen the bigger picture and that picture is as big as the universe. What I'm trying to say is that there are no coincidences, everything happens for a reason, even the small things. Like getting fired it feels bad it makes you feel depressed because you couldn't hold onto a job. But that is the whole point of life, you have to go through hardships you have to feel pain to truly know what happiness is. There's a saying I once heard
"Its going to get ugly before it gets pretty."
Though this way of life, this way that makes everything balanced is flawed because of one simple reason. There is no one around to lead people in the right direction. This is why so many people die, why so many people commit suicide cause they have been misguided be the evils of society. Though maybe that is what needs to happen, I'm not trying to sound cruel here. I'm just trying to say that in this world there needs to be balance, heck there needs to be balance in all the universe, in all of Halla. Though still I wish that in reality many people tried to survive, that they struggled to reach for happiness. I see no point in taking away your own life what will that prove that the world is evil. Well yeah that's what it would prove, but there is also good in this world, and too many people neglect it.

I know everything happens for a reason, and maybe this pain and chaos that happens throughout the world needs to happen.
Why?
Well I think it needs to happen so that we can make the world better.
This is the way it was meant to be.

Well as Spader would say
Hobey ho let's go

"Live and prosper in a world that seems bleak, that is the only way you can find happiness"

Lord of the Flies #9

You know I've been saying over and over again Light up the Darkness. But what is Light? And what is Darkness? Is Light the good of men? And if so does that make Darkness the evil of men? Then comes the bigger question how do you Light up the Darkness? Some spend their lives dedicated to doing it, they spend their lives finding out how to get rid of Darkness without committing Darkness itself. Even for me, I find my ways of doing it to be fruitless. At first my way of trying to keep people happy worked, but eventually I came to a wall that I just could not overcome. That wall was Love, one of the things that creates the brightest Light, but because it's so bright once it goes off you seem to have forgotten what it feels to be embraced by the Darkness. When that happens what will you do? I closed off my heart, and I'm gradually opening it again thank God.

"When you are the sun you forget what it means to be cold."

Well on the other hand as you can see by the title this is another blog for school :P
Sorry I just haven't been able to write things on my own time, but I will soon...I hope.
In this blog I will be answering three questions that relate to how children should be tried as adults.

1. Do children commit adult crimes?
See for me this question poses another question, is there such as thing as crimes that only adults can commit? Isn't it true that anyone can commit a crime no matter the age? You can't say that children can't commit adult crimes because there is no such thing as an "adult crime" only crimes. I have no idea why some people think that crimes should be limited to adults. If you commit a crime you should be punished equally. I myself think that anyone can commit a crime but the question is, for my teenage readers, will you commit it? It can only depend on your will.

2. Do you think Jack should be tried as an adult?
Jack knows what death is, but I don't think he should be tried harshly. Throughout the book he never actually killed anyone. Simon's death was unintentional, and it was really Roger who killed Piggy. If anything the one who should be tried should be Roger because he killed Piggy intentionally. The only crime that Jack should be tried for is the crime of the aid of the killing of Simon and the crime of attempted homicide.

3. Do you think children should ever be tried as adults?
Yes and No. There are a lot of things revolving around the issue, but in my honest opinion if the child knows what death is then they should be tried as adults. I think that if a child doesn't know what death is then the case is different because the child is to pure to know what he/she did. A child's mind sometimes doesn't know what he/she is doing. That is why there is so many issues revolving around the issue, because it's all about psychology.

Lord of the Flies #7

Right now I am tired beyond recognition, but I am writing this right now because of two reasons...well actually three. The first reason is because this is homework, the second is because I'm tired and I just feel like ranting a little right now before I do my homework, and finally the third reason is because I just want to say to the whole world I had a lot of fun today.
Now before my assignment I want to rant. So before I got home at my usual time of 8:30, I decided I would get a coke, so I took all the extra change I had and started putting all my coins in...I was twenty cents short so I just got my change back and quickly got into the incoming trolley. Now when I looked into my pocket the weirdest thing happened I magically had an extra quarter. Which just goes to show everyone, I'm one lucky guy because I got my soda in the end. ^_^

Date Unknown, 1941

Journal Entry #3
I woke up in a cage this morning tired and confused, my captures were only a few feet away, as I stirred in my cage the woke up. One of the boys was a bigun he raised his spear and threatened to kill me if I tried to escape. I could only gulp down my breath, as I opened my mouth to say something a loud noise, or a call "resounded around the island."(175) The boys are around me started mumbling something about a "conch"(15) they suddenly left as if I was just a memory of the past. I stared dumbfounded at my captures who suddenly forgot their prisoner. I could only help but laugh when I broke myself out when I guessed they were out of earshot. My first thought was to get out of here but then I became curious and started heading toward the part of the island the kids called "Castle Rock."(174) As I walked closer to Castle Rock I noticed a small amount of "smoke"(174) coming from it. Then all I heard was yelling coming from the kids.

As I looked out at the scene I saw the boys with everyone facing Ralph, Piggy and Samneric. I could only look as I saw Ralph and Jack suddenly battle it out in front of the boys. I have to say at this moment, all children in this island were going crazy, and Jack was still the worse of them all. His OCD was putting up a stubborn front of everyone what he was doing was wrong and I knew that, he has been doing evil deeds on this island and I wonder if Ralph could stop him. I honestly think he's the only one on this island that had any sense. Suddenly "Roger rolled a huge rock at Piggy and he fell with the conch shattering into a million pieces."(181) At that moment I just realized something, Roger had killed Piggy, and from his face he enjoyed it, it was as if he had a bad case of psychological trauma. He was murderers and I realized that he was just as worse as Jack except Roger had a murderes intent, Jack wanted order and would go to extremes. Scared for my life I ran, and I realized even Ralph was running away from the group. Right now I'm somewhere very far away from the group, I'm on the other side of the island to be exact.

Lord of the Flies #6

They say people who procrastinate always get the worst luck, well that means I'm going to have a hell of a day tomorrow. I have an essay due in about 10 hours and I am doing this right now when I had...around 8 hours to do it. So this just goes to show to all people who procrastinate out there, DON'T PROCRASTINATE! Because it's a very bad habit and can cause a lot of problems in the future, trust me on this one. Nothing ever good comes from procrastinating and I know best about that, I mean I'm doing this really late at night and I still have to finish my essay.
Man I'm going to be tired in the morning, he but what do you expect, that's what I deserve for blowing this off at the last minute.

Anyway this blog will be just like last one, so I will be acting as a counselor. But first I would like to say I have reached the point in the book where things get really crazy.
Hobey Ho let's go!

Date Unknown, 1941
Journal entry number 2, still no sign of rescue, I wonder if people have their hands full with the war right now? I woke up this morning with solemn faces surrounding me, no one would tell me why. As I went around the island I didn't see Simon anywhere, I had asked Ralph if he had seen him. Then all of a sudden Piggy was yelling, "that the group of boys killed him thinking he was the beast."(153) I shuddered as they told me the story, unconsciously I thought of how this would effect them over time, death is not something children at this age should cope with. They would probably have horrific nightmares or maybe even a slight case of hysteria, "Ralph though didn't seem affected by the death of Simon"(155), I wondered if he had already gone through something like this.

Though now the boy I am truly worried about, and frightened of, is Jack. He seems to have a horrible case of OCD, he does those weird dances and hunts pigs as if they were rituals to relieve his anxiety or stress. I worry about the boys surrounding him, it seems he wants everything to go his way or he will "punish you"(159) if you don't follow his orders. In my professional point of view I can come to the conclusion that Jack is officially & legally crazy. He will probably need years of therapy to get rid of his extreme version of OCD of course after his sentence in jail for the involvement of murder. As of now most boys on this island, in fact all probably fear him after what had happened to Simon, it was "Murder"(156). I wish I could do something right now but I have been banished to some random remote part of the island. Jack's boys thought that it would be better if I stayed out of the way of their freedom. So as of now I am writing this somewhere trapped in a cage, of course I get fed every now and then, but still it's cruel.

End Entry

Lord of the Flies #5

What's up homo sapiens?!
Well in this blog I will be acting as a therapist or a counselor and I will be diagnosing the boys with a mental disorder. You know like OCD, Schizophrenia, PTSD and all the other things you can think of. There was also something I had wanted to say but I forgot about it when I was linking the disorders. Man and it was something really good, you know how I have a little rant at the beginning of my blogs...I forgot what I was going to rant about. Man this makes me so sad...well whatever, I'm just going to tell you something that I learned today.
"Wisdom comes from experience and nothing else."

Now it is time, time to enter the abbyss called my mind.

Date unknown, 1941
I have drifted on this weird island the last thing I remembered was how my transport ship got targeted by the German's...many people died. I don't know what day it is, but I'm pretty sure that I am still in the year 1941.

I have found a group of children on the island, "British", by the sounds of them. I ask them how long they have been here, they really don't know, not one has kept track of time. I feel that I am an outsider among these children, and to be honest I am a little afraid of them. Especially Jack, he's the main hunter on this island, and he "hunts pigs"(135) for his own separate group. Apparently there was a fight amongst Jack and Ralph about how things should be run, and it split up the children, one group just wants to have fun while the other just wants to get rescued. Right now I'm their only link to the outside world, I hope that someone rescues us. Or if at least someone tried searching for any survivors from the shipwreck and hopefully they run onto this island.

The longer I stay here though, the more I think that these children are losing their heads. Especially this one boy named Simon, I've seen him "talking to a pig head that Jack put on a stake"(137) for the so called "beast" the children are afraid of. I worry for Simon, I think that maybe he has a serious case of Schizophrenia. Many of the boys here have probably gone through a lot of things they should not be going through. This type of stress on a person can be serious it can cause a lot of damage to the brain. I think some of the boys are suffering from other mental disorders also. I will be writing in here later to talk about the other disorders I diagnose the rest of the children with.

Lord of the Flies #4

Hello Humans of EARTH!
Now time to talk more about Lord of the Flies! In this fascinating new post I will be talking about Authority!! You know the thing people have, hate or are afraid of. But before I talk about that I just want to say I have posted up a blog about cooking though the thing is I haven't posted up any recipes yet so it's really nothing yet, but if you want to follow here's the site
http://foodofandres.blogspot.com/
ANYWAY! Time to explore my mind, I mean why else are you here?
This is the Mind Of Andres!
oh and one more thing before I forget
HAPPY BIRTHDAY J. J.!!!!

Authority!
It is such a pain to be honest, there is no freedom with it, you have no idea how many people's faces I've wanted to punch. Of course I've wanted to do it with good reason, you have no idea how many of my friends that are girls, get treated badly by the guys they date, and I always want to beat them up when I see them. That is where AUTHORITY comes in, I can't do anything without getting busted, and what annoys me even more is that the things I do have good reason, but that is not the case for authority. Instead they think that justice has to be handled differently, but that is what makes me even angrier. What is a slap on the wrist going to do? Some people need a taste of their own medicine, they need to feel what it's like to be treated the way they treat girls...of course the same applies when it's girls that are in the wrong. But I don't try to hurt girls so that is when things become difficult, I guess what I'm trying to say is that without Authority I guess I would go beating up every guy that has hurt my friends. Without authority only chaos ensues.

Chaos though, is inevitable for the children on the island already I see that the small authority called Ralph will be challenged. By who? Well I can only guess that it would be Jack the one that also wants to be chief. There have been many incidents where Ralph's authority has been ignored, one instance has been when Jack went hunting and let the signal fire die out. Another instance where the children acted differently without authority, and the author clearly spelled it out, was when Henry picked on the littluns. Also something that has appeared over and over again, is how they pick on each other, I would not say that this is a big thing but if grown ups where around would they do it? I really don't think that they would, because you know that's just how grown ups are, they would not let the children pick on each other.

See I will always hate authority, and for more than one reason, but what will happen without it? The answer is simple an I have already said it, Chaos. Without authority there is no one to control people's anger, there would be no one around to stop people that kill. People would go mad thinking that they are all powerful, or that they can do whatever they want. Just like the children think they could do whatever they want, but there is a limit to what you can do, and once that limit is passed you will only see trouble. Though I hate it, Authority needs to be kept in society, becuase without it there would be no society.

Lord of the Flies #3

What's up people's!
OK I know I've been saying that I will be putting up something that the masses will like, and I've come up with a cooking blog. I will put up a new blog in a week or two, when I do the link will be in a new post of mine. I will call it...I haven't really thought of a title to be honest, but it'll be awesome. Of course I'll still keep this blog up to talk about my opinions on light versus darkness because I still have the passion of Lighting up this world. I still haven't forgot my promise.

Anyway this blog is the same as the first one I did for summer school, Quote, Question & Comment, but before that I just want to say that Lord of the Flies has been quiet enjoyable.

Quote:

“He capered toward Bill, and the mask was a thing on its own, behind which Jack hid, liberated from shame and self-consciousness

Question:

Why did Jack go crazy when he put on the clay on his face?

Comment:

For me this is a sort of personal experience, I myself always put a mask on, though not literally. I just never show my true face to anyone, but when I really put on a real mask I feel like I am different, a bit crazed of course but different. In this way I think Jack and I are similar and I can understand what it feels like when you put on a mask, the rush, your imagination becoming real. It is nothing to scoff at really because it can be really serious for one reason; you never know what you’re going to turn into. Though I fear for the rest of the group what will happen when he puts on the mask and he tries to kill someone, the mask that Jack puts on is the mask of a bloodthirsty hunter, which is what it symbolizes for me. And with this new twist in the character I can only see that Jack and Ralph might argue, dark against light two forces clashing against each other to see who is actually right on the matter of this survival game that these boys are going through. I can only hope that no one dies, but who knows I think someone will especially with the first death or should I say “disappearance” of the little boy with the mulberry birthmark. This book is just crazy, so I think anything can happen in an island with boys that have twisted personalities. Though I’m pretty sure that the killer will probably be Jack.

Lord of the Flies #2

HELLO! PEOPLE OF EARTH!
I now at the moment have one reader my summer school teacher Angie, yay for me! ^_^
Anyway as you can see this new post will be for school again, I know I said that I would put something cool next time but how can I if I don't know if anyone is reading this except my teacher? Maybe if I get more readers I will put up cool posts like Recipe of the week or maybe even if there is a certain event happening and to give you heads up on when it's going to happen. I don't know I'm just a teenager....Anyway this post will be three paragraphs long and it is about who I would want as a leader. The leader being someone from Lord of the Flies of course, and I should chose carefully or I might regret it. Anyway time for my rant.


Leaders, have always been such a pain for me, well this is my opinion really. Most people who take lead have always...seemed to know less then I do, and I always wonder why I myself don't try to take leadership. Maybe it's because I haven't met someone who knows how to take authority. If I ever wanted someone to take lead I would want him/her to at least know more than I do on how to do something, or in the case of the book, SURVIVE. I also want him/her to be kind to his/her followers if not what is the point of being a leader, you should not rule with an iron fist, it's just wrong to do so, because people have no voice. So how would you know what your followers are thinking if you rule them with fear and they fear to speak their mind their opinions. See I have no idea what I look for in a leader, maybe because I myself am a natural born leader I just haven't realized it yet. But if I ever do want someone as a leader I at least want them to be the opposite of what I described a bad leader as.

Though I have to say that if I had to chose a character from Lord of the Flies I have no idea who to chose. Though I know I won't chose Jack cause he's a bit....crazy in my opinion, so it's a tie between Piggy and Ralph. Piggy, though not strong physically, is strong mentally, he sees the bigger picture on what is happening in this scenario. Ralph on the other hand has that strong sense of a leader that is fair, a leader that is strong willed, even though I said that they have to be at least smarter than me I think Ralph would be someone I would chose as a leader. I'm not saying that Ralph is dim, what I am saying is that from what I've read so far Ralph has not done a very good job with certain things. Such as the construction of the huts for shelter, it seems that Ralph is not capable of keeping control of the group. Though he is persistent and he continues to make the huts, and I hope that as more people see him doing this they will follow suite, like Simon for instance who stayed to help the hard working Ralph. Also Ralph has that hope that one day they will be rescued by his dad, it's not really silly to think the impossible, because the impossible can be made possible. And with this hope that Ralph is giving the children it bring a light into this dark scenario, a scenario where people see him as a beacon to follow, whom without people would be lost with. That is why out of all the characters in the book I would chose him as a leader, because he has a symbol, the conch. He was the man to gather all the children and form a group that is fighting for survival.

Ralph is a leader and that's all there is to it, but what makes him a leader is the same as every leader that has been recorded in history. It is that he himself is a symbol of light, not the conch, but him. For me that's what makes a good leader, someone who is a beacon for all to follow into safer shores. He is also someone that knows, even though he doesn't really know, he has that instinct of a leader who knows well his waters and can steer through safely without complaints his crewmen. And that's all there is to it really, Ralph is a natural born leader.

Lord Of the Flies

HELLO! EVERYBODY!
It's been a while since I have written in here and of course with that I am now down to zero readers so that means no fans for me. Yet how can I make up for that? My guess is to write things that people will love to read, to agree to,maybe a little help on certain things.

ANYWAY! Before I lose myself I am writing this post for school and I should at least try not to ramble on about my feelings. What I have to do is create a new post everyday...or was it every weekday? O_o
I don't remember. But that's not the point the point is I am extracting quotes from "Lord of the Flies" and questioning them and of course answering that question. So here is my quote.

QUOTE:

" There came a pause, a hiatus, the pig continued to scream and the creepers to jerk, and that blade continued to flash at the end of a bony arm. The pause was only long enough for them to understand what an enormity the downward stroke would be."

QUESTION:
Why didn't Jack Kill the pig?

COMMENT:
I think that the reason that jack did not kill the pig was not because he couldn't decide where to stab it, but because he himself along with Ralph and Simon both realized how big it would be to kill an animal. To me I see it as a weakness but at the same time a strength to care for life. It is a weakness because in the current situation that they have fallen into requires to kill animals to survive if they cannot overcome this dilemma then how will they survive.

Though as most of you know for me all life is precious no matter how evil it is, because of a simple reason all evil is good but at the same time all evil is good. There is no place to judge between what is right and what is wrong only to judge what is to be considered Taboo. I know I may sound harsh here but when you kill an animal, you do it to survive, to live, you do it to nourish yourself. And again I will say it if the children do not learn how to take a life how will they survive? You can only last so long on fruits, but I foresee that it will happen in the book, because when you're trying to survive you will do things sometimes that most people should never do. It's survival instincts in the works, you have to do what is necessary to survive sometimes, but when you kill you severe yourself, so I can't wait to see what happens after one of the boys kill an animal. I can only imagine how one will threaten and rebel against the main character and this would probably cause separation of the group, but hey I haven't finished the book yet so I can only guess what's going to happen with the small foreshadowing that the author leaves in the chapters I have read.