Me Myself and I

Lately I've been wondering who am I? Two years ago I wrote a full on description on who I feel I am though nowadays I'm not too sure of who I am myself. Though what are we really? Are any of us really human? There has never been a guide book where it says this is a way a human should live, and because of that there are many confused people. Confused over what you may ask? Confused over a meaning, confused on why you exist what purpose is there for you to even be here on this earth, and as you think and think and can not find the answer you fall more into your mind until you become obsessed over who you really are. Over what you were meant to do in this world. You obsess over meaning.

Though maybe you really don't perhaps you have the mindset of simply not thinking about such trivial matters and simply live on with your life as if ignoring it was a natural thing. Why people do this it's because they already know who they are, they are content with what life has come out to be. Because of that they pose no further questions and only think of what's at hand, thinking only of the now and the future, of course occasionally looking at the past but only for reference or guidance nothing more.
What I am saying and I will acknowledge it, is in every way too general I'm only applying of course to a set group trying to teach the fact that you are who you are and what you do is what you do. Do not fret over the fact that you have not done anything humongous that has changed the world for the better or the worse. If you want to do something like that than by all means go ahead though it isn't as easy as it looks. I've met this wonderful lady once it took her 10 years to accomplish what she did and she really did make a difference in the world of course you may do the same. That is if you are willing to spend the amount of effort it takes to accomplish such a feat.

As I close this of I will say this once more you are you and nothing else. You are no one else but you and what you can accomplish is anything you want that is as long as you're willing to work for it.

Suicide on North bound 5

For those of you up to date on what is going on in the world many of you might have heard that a women was contemplating on whether or not she should commit suicide. Everyone of course made the same remarks "How stupid! Why won't she just do it already? Why at a freeway?"
You have no idea how much I wanted to yell at everyone and ask "DOESN'T A HUMAN LIFE MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?!?!?!?" I don't care if it's stupid or not if a person is deciding on whether or not to do it shouldn't that concern us more!? Instead all we do is complain because it's a bother in our life how many of us actually have this thought go through our head? "Well if she's deciding doesn't that mean there is still that small ray of light in her heart that encourages her to keep on living?"
Though all I kept hearing from everyone was the same @!#% everyone wanted her to just do it already so they can get on with their lives. How many of us can even be considered human anymore? It is times like this where I just want to yell at people because of how inhuman they act, but because I'm at school people start thinking "oh this guy is crazy."

That is why I write here because through writing people have a much better understanding, I am not branded as crazy but as a person with an opinion.

No more school posts!!!!!!

I now have total liberty to write whatever the heck I want on this blog without holding back, just kidding. I still have to hold back because someone might flag me for something inappropriate I might put on, so I guess that means I still have to hold back a little. Well anyway here is the story because my teacher felt that I put up posts that aren't school related on my own personal blog and there is the fact that he has my blog posted up on his DP so if I say anything that is slightly disturbing how exactly will it represent the school. To be honest there was truth behind those words but still that doesn't mean I can't express my self.
POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!!
Though I'm a bit glad that I don't have to put school posts on this anymore because to be honest I felt that my school posts and regular posts where in a way conflicting with each other, also I kinda of thought how many people actually want to read this?
Anyway right now I am currently running three blogs a school one a regular one and a cooking one...which I need to start updating. I haven't really updated it for the following reasons

1. I haven't had time to cook anything
2. I want to put up pictures
3. I can't decide if I should vegetarian or just put all types of recipes
   
4. I've been extremely lazy

Anyway I hope you start reading other blogs too and if you want to give me tips or suggestions for a new blog or maybe how to improve my blog than please go ahead.

The Connections

It's sad that I am only a small factor in some of my friends' lives right now. The only thing they can remember me by is the past I shared with them, but there lies the problem I was different back then I was someone they didn't want to share their past and I regret some of the things I have done. I wish that I could spend time with them now to show how much how I have changed and how I have become a better person. I don't know...well I don't remember why I did such things, maybe it was to show my friends how cool I was, or to at least meet their standards. But in sixth grade is when I really changed I realized the people I wanted to respect me didn't know about life and neither did I. But which one of us did? I don't think any of us really knew what life was supposed to be especially at our age. We where what 12? So of course none of us really knew what we were doing, we didn't know how much we were hurting until we saw a person cry and then all of us would go into a group hug.
I always go back to the same question WHY do we do these things?
I think it's cause we do not know life, and that few of us know how to make a "true" connection. What is real friendship? What is real love? WHAT IS REAL?
Why must I at the age of 16 have these thoughts? Then I remember I have these thoughts because I have caused pain and I have seen it countless times, and I just want to know how to end all this madness, all this insanity, all this inhumanity, all this pain. Yet for some reason I can never do it, no matter how strong my friendship is it will in some way or other get cut, I can't keep a person happy because something bad "must" happen.

What can I do?
The answer has always been be myself and help the world a little bit at a time.
Unfortunately I'm very impatient but I really want to change the world.

The World

We have all heard how people, die because how they were treated. How people committed suicide, it's hard to talk about this subject because we never bring it up do we? What can we do just to save these people from killing themselves? It's all just questions on this subject because it's hard to answer is it not? I guess that's the only thing I can think about, to talk about this, questions and no answers. Yet I will try, why have a steadily increasing number of us have chosen to take our lives? Is it because there is a steadily increasing number of us that are putting other people down? But there lies a great question why don't we respect one another, support each other, help others in need? Why have we become bitter? Is it because since we don't have other people supporting us we must put other people down? What is the reason some of us put others down? Why do we make it seem like we don't care or to rephrase that how? All we can ever ask is why? The answer is always the same somebody just does not care about that person. How can we say that they make a difference, how can we love someone who is different then us? How can we care about them? How can we make a difference? My answer is "one sentence." That is how we can make a difference just by saying one sentence. What you say is not up to me, what you say is totally up to you. But saying one sentence can swing both ways it can make someone totally miserable or make them extremely happy.

Whatever your choice is might kill someone or it might save them.

Remember Words have power in them use it wisely.

Humanities Narrative

Now as most of you know I go to a project based school, which has its own personality guidelines,
guidelines that have been nicknamed The Habits of the Heart and Mind, or HHM for short. Now for every project of ours we reflect on it and ask ourselves did we incorporate the HHM? Well for me it is a problem trying to use all of them in a project, I say this because I only use some of the
guidelines unconsciously of course I use them all when I think about it but that was not the case
for my most current project "I believe in America" which honestly I do in some ways but with my personality I'm pretty much OK with anything. Anyway before I stray off subject like I always do I have to tell you what HHM I had used in this project. The first one is perseverance, you know "never give up never surrender!" Now the first time I saw this HHM I just laughed because I am really stubborn to the point where people are annoyed, so of course for me this habit is no biggie because of course my own personality takes into effect. Anyway in this project I never gave up, you can ask JBoss himself I'm pretty sure he remembers how much I kept bugging him so I can get my face plastered, as for my essay I just wrote what I felt and had my friend refine it, which I refined,which JBoss never looked at because I had to record it ASAP. Which brings me to the next habit Refinement which I unconsciously wrote about it already while I was making fun of myself. Which says that I am not really Mindful of my writing, for instance I just realized how many times I've used the word "which"that makes me wonder if I even used the next habit Mindfulness in this project at all and to be honest I really don't think so because when I write or do anything, I'm in my own little world and I completely neglect the real world. Though if I really think about it I guess I was mainly mindful in my writing because I usually cuss, yell get angry etc. it's a basically a mixture of emotions. Of course when I wrote my essay I had to think about my most rated G perspective on America, and I will be honest I have a ton of opinions of America some good and some bad, but well this is one person's opinion so why does it make a difference? Well for me I think that if you listen to every one's opinion on a subject you yourself obtain a new opinion on it. For me even if perspective is a habit when I write a piece of writing I am not looking for you to argue I just want you to hear me out and just have a taste of "my" perspective. Even with my friends I say the same thing I don't want an argument or for you to agree I just want you to have a taste, this is why I call my blog The Mind of Andres because this blog is all about my perspective. Of course another perspective and to be honest confuses me a lot is the difference between passion and Compassion those always throw me off. I remember when I had to do POL I mixed up the HHM Compassion with Passion, they really aren't the same thing apparently. Passion is well having emotion in what you do and Compassion meaning understanding the troubles and hardships of others. I wouldn't say that I have ever used it in a project I have only really used it to help my friends or others ou of hardships. So I guess in honesty I didn't really use it in this project at all, of course the same implies with cooperation not because I hate people, I love people, but mostly because this was an independent project maybe every here and there I helped with editing and refinment but really that's about it. The last thing I'm going to talk about and I know most of you are saying "FINALLY" is of course evidence. I have to say I had barely used it in my essay I have a ton of experiences about how evil humanity can be, and how good but I really didn't use those examples in my life as much so I guess you would say that was another bummer.

Anyway this is the end of it so bye bye and have a good day.
"No I will not stop posting posts I'm just saying this is the end of this post"

Today

Yo what's up people?
Well this is how I woke up this morning I woke up thinking "man I have such a bad feeling" guess what I found in my room? I found my dogs...leavings. So I had to get a bucket of water towels and clean it from my carpet because my dad said he would not take me to school unless I cleaned it. From there I KNEW that today was going to be a bad day, and I was right, all the juniors got in trouble including me. We all got in trouble because we were disrespecting our education, and to be honest I kinda of agreed with the teachers. You have no idea how many times I've had to tell my friends to just except the homework we are given and not complain about, because that's just how high school is, in high school you have to work your butt off, no one has any right to complain. Also the teachers brought up the fact that the students were cheating off of each other, I thought "well if they at least explain it to each other I'm ok" but that wasn't the case for the juniors apparently and I honestly believe that. I have been asked countless times if people can copy from me, of course I say no and help them though, I know how much trouble I can get in if I plagiarize, I'm not dim enough to do that. Though you would think well so what why is this so important to blog about? Well to be honest this is the first time in a while were I was so peeved at everything to the point where I cried because I held back me emotions. I was truly and utterly angry at everything, I was not just peeved of at everyone but myself included. I was angry at myself because I could not do anything to stop these events and I was angry at everyone else because of their #$@%@%@$%@$%$% I'm so angry I can't even think of a word to describe their #$@%#$%@#%@#^ so i just put @#$%@$%#@%^#6.

Well I guess that's really all I want to say. So I'm gonna end this and just say don't plageriaze and just work hard, because if you don't you are only cheating yourself. You are allowed to complain all you want, because that's freedom of speech, but please do it while you are alone, and just suck it up and do the work. I know some of you hate to do it but these days that's just how you progress in life.

Complaining

Hello people. Now as most of you know and it's basically a very common fact the reason people have blogs is to complain about whatever. Right now I want to complain on why people complain you see I am totally contradicting myself because for those of you who have read my "PERSONAL" blog posts you notice how I complain about almost everything and that's just how I am really. All I'm trying to say what is complaining gonna do? How many people that write these things make a difference in their communities? How many actually volunteer to help out somewhere were there was an earthquake, tsunami, oil spill, eruption and any other type of natural disaster you can think of? It's not enough to just tell people to do it you just got to get off your but and just go!!! AND YES I am trying to tell you right now to stop reading this blog and do something volunteer help out at a homeless shelter, make a sculpture out of recycled materials, pick up trash while your walking home, start walking and stop driving a car, save the world get a compost for your house, sell the dirt it makes, do something that can benefit the community. Right now it seems like right now I'm not doing anything like that but you know what I'm making a tree out of recycled paper, every time I go to my beach I pick up trash. I help my school fundraiser, I give ideas to my superiors to do things that everyone will love, throw a rave, car washes, water balloon fights, i have a compost bin at home you can do a lot of things you just need to know what to do. So just ponder what needs help, does anyone need your help try to even deal with the small things like spending time with your family. Just do something that will not just satisfy you but also something that will make others happy.

WE ARE ALL PEOPLE, PEOPLE ARE GREEDY AND RUDE, BUT THEY ALSO HAVE A LIMITLESS CAPACITY OF KINDNESS, LOVE AND COMPASSION.

I live by this rule, I know people can be snobby rude and only care about money but making people laugh, smile and love that stuff is priceless. You don't need money to have a good time you just need a little imagination and the will to get up and just go.

OK my prattle is done so see ya later.