Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Good and Bad photos





Well there are bad photos like the one to the left and good photos that actually do something like above you can obviously tell the diference, in practically everything. The lighting, color, background, number of people, angle a bunch of other things I probably haven't noticed but you probably have. Well to better explain the right photo was just an accident and I took this night, while the one on top I tried to capture something, one was to make some people smile and laugh that was my main intention really my other intentions were to catch a sweet angle with my friends doing something weird but I wanted to capture it so it seemed abstract, it's hard for me to explain since I'm new to photography. Now I ask you what is the difference between a good and a bad photo.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Mulan

"China's most famous woman warrior lived and fought in the fifth century AD. Her father was conscripted to go to war, but he was too sick to fight, so Hua Mu-Lan offered to go in his place. Her father rejected the offer, but she insisted. She suggested they have a sword fight and if she won, she'd go. Mu-Lan won the fight.
She cut her hair, put on her father's armor and joined the emperor's troops using her father's name. For over ten years, she fought as a man without her true identity being discovered. Her bravery at the front lines and extraordinary fighting skill so impressed her general that he offered this soldier his daughter's hand in marriage. Somehow, the marriage never took place and Mu-Lan returned home and became herself again. A play written in her honor, the Mu-Lan Play ends with the following lines:
She had much fighting ability, and could act the leader. Her body passed through one hundred battles, always at the front, and compared to the fiercest soldiers, she was still better." this is the part how the legend is described in http://www.distinguishedwomen.com/biographies/huamulan.html most of us know Mulan as a famous women who was in a war when she wasn't supposed to be in a war because she was a women. We've all seen the movie made by Disney yes I admit the whole thing is cute but it shows that the West is superior to the East, the whole movie was based on Americas view of the world, well not the whole movie some of it was true, like Religion, Honor, Lifestyle, Beliefs. Well seeing as it was supposed to be a child movie of course they had to remove certain things like how they tie a womens feet so as to keep them small. This of course makes the foot deformed and is extremly painful when circulation comes back to normal. When they spare her life when it is clear she is women they would've killed on site once they figured out. I could keep going on about this the movie was a bit false but some parts were true so I guess I can't really keep arguing seeing as this was a childrens movie and wasn't really intended to show the evils of a country, just to reanimate a legend in Disney's point of view.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

To the friends I left behind

If any of my of my friends read this, old ones or new ones remember I am always around even when I'm not really I'm always around, just to help. I am always there to help, I will come to comfort you I will go to endless bounds just to help you, but you got to tell me, I will run just to reach you I dont care if your 3000 miles away from me I'll come. You guys are my friends and you have taught me so much so let me return the favor. I am not doing this because I have to but because I want to. If you guys ever read my new year resolution I have to tell you I wrote it because of my friends, and now it has become a goal that I want to fulfill. I may need help myself but I will always put my friends on the top of my list. We grew up together and right now it may seem like our bonds are breaking but I need to say NO! are bonds will stay as long as I live, I swear it. You guys always saw me as someone great but I always saw my friends as the great people. My friends are my inspiration, my encouragement my light in the darkness. Everyone I know and met and befriended I always saw they all had something special, a unique gift that seperated the rest, I became friends with people individualy and not as a group. I just got to know the persons group and I learned that even they had something unique. We all became friends because you wanted to, all I have to say is thanks because my friends helped me grow. But always remember this as we grow apart "New friends are silver but old ones are gold." We all have a unique gift and all I want to say don't fall under pressure and lose it and if you do remember I am always around I am always watching like a sentenial being I am always looking after everyone, I am not around but I am always watching, and I will come when summoned. If you ghuy's ever need comfort, help, or advice call me don't just lay there and become a mess, because then I'll blame myself. Know I am always around that I am lways watching, I am always protecting you, I will always come when asked no matter the distance. Remeber even when I'm not around I am.

Friday, January 11, 2008

The Doubts so Far

So far I have been struggling to control myself to be what I want to be, I have changed but only slightly and I am starting to doubt if I could actually do it. But then I remember something of how someone saw greatness in me, when my after school teacher had his baby he brought him in then he said to me"I want him to be just like you." I guess that's when I realized I had potential I no longer wanted to do things because I had to but because I wanted to. I wanted to set an example, I wanted to inspire others I wanted to just spread myself. But then fifth grade came and friends started changing, some left it became worse in seventh grade were I just lost them I don't even think I have a connection with them anymore. That is when I started wondering what in the world is so great about me I, I say nothing but my memories say something else something different that I have power I have the potential to do great things. Are there really great people in this world or is it just power. I see darkness when I actually look around but I see other things in a persons eyes, something that makes me wander off into a trance that just keeps searching for something pure, something that I know I can reach if I just tried. I look for the good in them is what I try to do constantly, but the other parts of me keep altering it feels like I can't keep a simple grasp on a subject, I am starting to doubt myself I am starting to doubt if I am really different or if I'm just another one of those guys who cause damage to people. Am I different or am I just like everyone else can I sustain my vision of being every one's light I am trying my best to help through writing but when will I be able to help fully both physically and mentally. Right now I am fighting between the mind that just thinks of destruction, chaos, war, depression, darkness and Hell. I have lost sleep because of this part of my mind. The other one that sees hope, light, peace, balance, tranquility and Heaven. These two side are consistently fighting and I cannot chose one is walking more into the darkness and the other is trying to prevent it. In middle school I traveled more into the darkness I'm glad to say I was pulled out, by who I don't know I just remember the hand reaching for me. I guess some one is still looking over me, I hope that I can do what I want to and that is to be a Light I want to pull every one out of the darkness, all I need to do is win the war within myself. I need to have control for those reading this I need to say it may seem like I have control but I don't I know I help you guys all the time, and it never seems like I need help, all I'm doing is faking it I do need help but right now you guys are more important even if I have to lose a few battles I'll make sure I become a Light, I will become Light because I want to make sure you guys actually have a future. I am Light!!!!!!